Some might wonder why I bother to write so much. Itís not because I believe that I deserve or have any great following. That would be pretty conceited, and Iíve met too many, and grown up with a few, who are best men or women within the sounds of their own voices. No, it probably has more to do with the fact that for so many years, others enforced my silence with threats and jeers. It took me a long time and a lot of practice to find my own voice.
Now I intend to use it. If I do any good with this, it may be in helping others to find their voices, or at least give them some words and ideas when they, like I once was, are unable to find how to say what they feel.
The Christ I used to believe in was not afraid or ashamed to associate with the lowest classes of his day, the prostitutes and publicans, those who had little or no voice in their own society. From what Iíve read, he treated them with decency and respect, listening to what they had to say. He spoke up for them. Try getting that from most lawyers or judges or church people, many of those who claim to live in His image.
Iím not that good or charitable, and wonít even admit to being a Christian, much less a good one. Perhaps that comes from some, or one, who pretended or claimed to be the best kind of Christian, convincing me with jeers and contempt that I had no place in any heaven, back when I was a child. Unlike some I have known, I merely resist passing those jeers and contempt on to those who have done nothing to hurt me. For one thing, itís a huge waste of emotion and productive energy, with which overly righteous people seem to be overly endowed.
So if anyone is actually reading this, whoís holding a gun to your head to make you? Not me. If you donít like it, I figure your conscience has a mute button with a lot of wear on it. And if you like that line, feel free to use it. Of course, I may not wish to be implicated in your personal heresy. Iím having enough trouble with my own. "